negativity

Had an interesting moment a couple minutes ago. I was watching a video of someone talking about things that I'm interested in but doing a way better job of presenting it (or at least that's the thought that crossed my mind in that moment) and a follow-up thought passed by that was essentially putting me down. Something like "man, I suck."

And in that moment I saw myself sitting there and I saw the thought, and I decided not to believe it. I let it float by with only a slight ripple of negative feeling before taking another breath and returning to neutrality. I understood where it came from and what it was doing so it wasn't able to take hold and pull me into the mud like it might have in the past.

I guess it's a sign of progress. I've spent most of my life being beaten to shit by these kinds of thoughts. An old record that might finally be losing its appeal.