apparition
June 27, 2022•225 words
Me — Yesterday at 8:49 PM
Interesting thoughts. I wonder, when it comes to ego, whether or not it's just a phantom. A kind of phenomenological apparition. With regards to "self control" for example, when one is "in control" what does that mean exactly? That things are occuring in a way that's agreeable or beneficial to the individual? And being out of control is when they're not? Or is it when our ideas about ourselves aren't aligning with what's happening? When we would prefer they were different?
I wonder whether ego might be one of those ideas that one can "go through" with enough observation. With it having a solid existence and role in one's life, and then less, then less, until one day it's almost transparent. "I" appear in some circumstances and dissolve in others. Judgements appear in some circumstances and don't in others. A sensation of control comes and goes. I really don't know tbh
Self control I guess would imply a direction of the individual by will. But where does that will arise from? Where does the ego arise from? Who's controlling who, and why? And whatever the why is, why that why?
Them — Yesterday at 9:12 PM
This sounds like it could be the dialogue for a final boss before the battle starts
Me — Yesterday at 9:56 PM
😂