wor(l)d

Woke up this morning and lay in bed for a while with my eyes closed, immersed in my thoughts. Thoughts that made me feel like I was swimming in uneasiness. Then I heard the birds tweeting and opened my eyes to see the blue sky outside my window. The thoughts went away for a moment as I listened and looked, and I noticed.

My perception of the world and everything "in it" (including myself) is the result of repetitive habituated thought patterns. It's an illusion. I'm not seeing or thinking about the world, I'm seeing and thinking about my thoughts about it. The same basic ones repeating over and over again, and all of it built upon impressions taken in from "out there". Essentially, we seem to feed each other illusions through our words and believe that the words we come to think about are reality. Layers upon layers of accumulated impressions and judgements circling our minds to be reinforced and added upon.

Change the thoughts and the world changes. Or at least the subjective experience of it does. Better yet, change the relationship to the thoughts and be freed from the cage of thoughts about. Letting it all be what it is, knowing that none of it is really what I think.