dead

God, spirit, heart - some words which point towards the only force in life which is really alive. Only expressions, creations, words, movements, thoughts, feelings, anything at all which are in the immediate process of emerging from these depths are living. Everything else is a husk, an empty shell, a hollow remnant of something which once emerged alive but is now dead. This includes our very bodies. These bodies are shells, each with a connection to the wellspring of life witnessing and animating its movements from within, unseen and unmanifest in the dimensions of the senses but very real. This wellspring is where all sincerity, authenticity, creativity, originality, beauty, joy, spontaneity, genuineness, peace, warmth, light and life as a whole emerge into the world. The vast majority of that which can be experienced on the levels of the 5 senses is already dead and in the process of decay/dissolution.

Anything stored in the mind as a memory is also dead, a formless but still existent phantom of what once was. Most of what we say, think and feel are empty, dead remnants of something that once emerged from the living source. Old habits, old programming, old memories, old ideas, old concepts, old feelings, all stored and repeated to fuel something else that's dead - ego. A dead set of beliefs about a self. A collection of thoughts stored in the memory that take up so much attention and energy that any hint of the spontaneous unfolding of life energy animating us and everything else is hardly ever noticed or felt once the ego develops.

Life can only be encountered in the elusive-yet-imminently-obvious now. It's constantly present and passing by but we're missing it because we're so preoccupied with dead things. Naturally we ourselves hardly ever feel viscerally alive because the raw energy/experiencing of Life rarely manages to penetrate through all the detritus occupying our perception. To find Life, to participate in the process of living and not just dying, it all needs to be seen for what it is and let go of to make room for what's immediate and therefore closest to the living source.