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Today I'm feeling how devastating the awakening process can be, and how relentless life is in its determination to move one way and one way only. There's no going back. There's no returning to the sense of structure and solidity my old illusions provided. Even the painful ones served some purpose in shielding me from aspects of reality that were even more painful to face. It's strange and confounding to consider the minds capacity for denial and self-deception. Some memories are crossing my mi...