aug12

I seem to prefer staying in a detached state of wonder at life/creation over getting really involved in what I'm seeing/participating in. I stay aloof somewhere deep down, watching it all happen before my eyes/mind even as my own body speaks and acts in that space. I revel in the passing mystery of it more than the tangible details and treasures.

At the same time there's a yearning for more intimacy, more involvement, more closeness, more participation, more play. Is it possible to have both? Can I have my cake and eat it too? Or does something have to give?