March 5, 2021•603 words
During my time with OCD, I kept going on in my head, thinking that I would never get better. Please, don’t do that! It is already hard enough trying to focus on treatment and dealing with the day-to-day struggles of OCD. Give yourself a break, let the process work, and keep pushing forward.
This was one of my biggest hurdles. Getting out of the mindset that I was going to be scarred by this mental disorder. Every single day, there was a worry that was almost constantly on my mind. “Will I ever be normal again?” or “This is how I am going to be, I have to live like this and accept it”. Don’t do this to yourself if you can help it. I think it caused me to take two steps forward and three steps back. It really put a damper on my progress.
Once I let OCD go, I got better. OCD sucks bad but, to get better, acknowledge its presence and let it go. Don’t ignore it though, as that can be an avoidance compulsion. Think of it as seeing something out of the corner of your eye, you glance at it, then you go on about your day. This is what you need to do with your OCD. If you are thinking about OCD, you are most likely ruminating, which is a compulsion!
I hope some of this stuff is helpful to anyone with OCD. I know how lost I was on my journey and I found comfort in hearing about other people’s journey and success. I can’t wait for this blogging platform to allow comments. I want to get to know you all and interact with anyone who may read this.
I’m not a Microsoft fanboy by any means but this new Xbox is amazing. Everything fits just right. The controller is an improvement, I personally, like the way it looks, it is much smaller than I thought it was going to be. The fans on this thing are silent, unlike previous generations of the Xbox, I can enjoy gaming without turning the volume up loud.
Gaming has been smooth. The new controller is light but still feels like quality. As my previous posts have stated, I have been playing the Outriders demo. This game is fun as heck. To me, it is a mix of Gears of War with Destiny’s loot. The feeling when you get that new piece of gear is cool.
I also really like the abilities that the classes have. They are pretty distinguishable from each other which is good. I have been using the technomancer because I like long range fighting and the turrets you can throw on the battlefield.
There are a few quirks that are kind of off putting. The cover system is a bit wonky. It doesn’t feel as good as Gears, which is my gold standard for these types of shooters. There have also been some complaints about the amount of cutscenes there are in the game. I 100% agree with this. I am pretty sure the devs are trying to hide the loading screens but goodness, I hate seeing a cutscene when I open a dang door! The cutscenes in the demo are locked at 30 FPS I believe. To be fair, the devs are taking away this cap in the full version.
I’m most excited to play a new co-op only game with my buddies online. I’m getting older and my reflexes aren’t great anymore. Something that I can enjoy with my friends without being super competitive is going to be a breath of fresh air.