March 1, 2021•507 words
During my time with OCD, I kept going on in my head, thinking that I would never get better. Please, don’t do that! It is already hard enough trying to focus on treatment and dealing with the day-to-day struggles of OCD. Give yourself a break, let the process work, and keep pushing forward.
This was one of my biggest hurdles. Getting out of the mindset that I was going to be scarred by this mental disorder. Every single day, there was a worry that was almost constantly on my mind. “Will I ever be normal again?” or “This is how I am going to be, I have to live like this and accept it”. Don’t do this to yourself if you can help it. I think it caused me to take two steps forward and three steps back. It really put a damper on my progress.
Once I let OCD go, I got better. OCD sucks bad but, to get better, acknowledge its presence and let it go. Don’t ignore it though, as that can be an avoidance compulsion. Think of it as seeing something out of the corner of your eye, you glance at it, then you go on about your day. This is what you need to do with your OCD. If you are thinking about OCD, you are most likely ruminating, which is a compulsion!
I hope some of this stuff is helpful to anyone with OCD. I know how lost I was on my journey and I found comfort in hearing about other people’s journey and success. I can’t wait for this blogging platform to allow comments. I want to get to know you all and interact with anyone who may read this.
I have written about my OCD and I wanted to write a positive post about how I am doing right now. I’ll be honest, my Harm OCD had me quit gaming for a long while. It always worried me when I played games. I thought I would “like” violence aspect of certain games a bit too much. I thought it would fuel me going “crazy”.
Obviously this is stupid. OCD is just noise in your brain and has nothing to do with who you are or what you are going to become. The hard part is, trying to convince yourself of this when you have OCD is the wrong way to go about healing yourself.
I figured this out and finally got better. Now, I have ordered an Xbox Series X! I am really excited to get back into gaming in some of my free time. I know I can enjoy it again without OCD jumping in and ruining it for me.
OCD is not you, and it is not me either. Don’t let it take over the things you like to do. This is the opposite of what you should do in these situations. Please visit https://iocdf.org to find yourself a therapist and get on the right track to feeling better.
Next stop, Outriders demo on my new Xbox!