Break/Vacation

I've been binging "The Affair", and I'm seeing so many similarities. (Maybe spoilers, I watched until ep. 5) I can't figure out what I want. One moment, I am talking to my lover and I am feeling really great, happy, thinking I should be with him. But then he gets busy and we don't talk for a long while, and I start doubting myself. Just because once he meant a lot to me, and once he made me feel amazing, doesn't mean he still is that same person now. I tried communicating more with my boyfrien...