11-14-21

paranoid paranoid paranoid paranoid why did u say all those things to many things for so soon this is literally going to be the reason u get abandoned again tooo many deep thoughts went too hard on that first one there oh shit why did i say all those things what even is my brain why does it have to be this way shitty shitty shitty shitty too much trauma so little time too much madness it's not going to be fine ever this is how it will be until you die is like one time you figured out how to deal for a while but then shit kept happening and slowly the sculpture lost very crucial pieces for the whole balance of the thing one more piece missing and suddenly the thing is les stable there it is over there

wobbling

because oh yeah she fuckin wobbles too everywhere shaking all the time if it's not happening involuntary she is doing it on purpose because at least i can still do it on purpose spilling shit all the time drop the thing trip over the air spill the full coffee maybe get a little on you too oh you know throw the knife dump the dinner miss the keys on the fucking keyboard oh yep you definitely moved too little oh yep you definitely moved too much endlessly forever and it's never going to get better no end in sight this is just how it is for you so get used to it

cope like you do with everything else