Note 80

I am noticing that I am running into the same cycle of not knowing what I want to pursue (because I'm a overthinking idiot), and becoming stunlocked and then sent into a depressive cycle because I keep wasting time.

Much to think about.

I suppose I could blame it on being bullied but the fact of the matter is that I gotta figure my shit out. I can't really sit around and mope every day. I think part of it is just making the time to actually pursue everything. Like what exactly is stopping me from just... doing it all. Nothing really if I think about it. I'm just highkey lazy as fuck. That's probably the main issue.

Maybe at the end of the day I am the problem.

Smile.

fuck man.