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March 30, 2023•125 words

Noticing the futility of thoughts while lying in bed this morning. One follows the other. Common themes - anxiety, self preservation, anticipation, control. Scanning variables for potential threats. Lack of trust, lack of confidence.

And so, I turn it over to Life and choose to focus on Here/Now. I will feel the anxiety in my chest, release it and enjoy this day, surrendering thoughts of days that will never come to pass in reality. Mere projections of a fearful mind. As I move through the anxiety and back into contentment, the projections will change. I will change - or at least appear to. In truth, life will be as it was always going to be.

So let's get moving! Out of thought and into Life!

👍❤️🫶👏👌🤯🤔😂😍😭😢😡😮

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