Day 024

#100Days

Control - Sowing the seeds of our future vs the Impermanence

• Why do I want to control things?

• Why do I get anxious when I feel that I'm starting to loose control of life / present?

• Identification with things around me and how do I think they should be handled..

Ok, I fear the unknown, I fear losing whatever I consider I have. I fear loosing the things I am identified with.

I've seen a lot of times the different ways we can pick the seed to sow in our lives. I'm also aware that we can freely sow them. The harvest is a natural consequence, and it might be fruitful or not. But if you get fruits from your seeding, they will definitely be from the seeds you sowed. So you know, in before hand, what can be expected as an outcome.

Ok, I understand that, but I still hold (more of instinctive) expectations on the outcomes of the seeds I sow. Sometimes I'm also picky about them, because I'm constantly aiming at the outcomes.

I think that having the outcomes in mind is ok, but to hold strong expectations about them is not that healthy. In spite of that understanding, I still hold them.

Impermanent things can be enjoyed while they last, but it's important to keep in mind that they're only lasting a while, not forever. Same goes for plans in long, mid and short terms. Make plans, enjoy the experience while it lasts, but don't cling to them.