Day 078

#100Days

Do more of the things you like

Since yesterday I started to get back to this state of focus where you look more into yourself.
It is like taking good care of the inner child, listening to it, and becoming more accountable for the things you do (because they all affect the inner child to some degree).

I was back in that state, but somehow started missing the focus. I think it might be related to the introduction of new routines or activities at work. That kinda helped me to get somehow distracted.

There was also tiredness and bad sleeping.

Ok, well, a set of events influenced my overall humor, and I again was too kind for my own good. I should have said stuff earlier, draw lines earlier and made clearer that I have my own needs. But I'm still too kind for my own good.

When I leave myself unattended, this insatisfaction kicks in after a few days and they start to affect my humor from some deep spot in the soul. Yesterday I was feeling quite bad, like, wanting to cease to exist. And that was all caused by this lack of attention.

All I had to do is to take more care of the inner child, and do more of the things I like.

That was a very good relief and really helped me to feel better. Today I woke up feeling a lot better than yesterday, and I also have a lot more motivation to go back to my personal projects.