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I never realised but meeting new people is definitely the fastest way to provoke change… in me personally. I get so comfortable with my own environment, with my friends. I have learnt how to "manipulate" them in order to hear what I want. I know whom what to say in order to get understanding, I know how to present stories in order to get what I want. Meaning that I only get more and more centred in my comfort zone and not much changes for very long time. Jesus, my subconscious is so wicked. Al...

I will never be what you want. I am the perfect friend for you because I can help you out whenever is needed but nothing more than that. You are not searching for someone to be equal to you. You want to be in charge, you like having power. I could never be that someone next to you. Not here, neither in the next life nor in the previous. It's perfect being your friend. It's so very convenient. Peaceful. You are complex enough; you would never be with someone as messed up as me. Never. Not in bill...

I don't want you. I don't want you. I don't want you. We don't fit. We don't fit. We don't fit. We don't fit. We don't fit. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I don't want you. I don't want you. I don't want you. I don't. I don't want you. I don't want you. I don't want you. Please stay away from me. I am fragile, please stay away. I don't want you close to me. I love you but we are not right. Let's take a break. Please let me go. Let me breathe. Get out ...

Get out of my mind, please. What have you been doing there again? How long are you visiting this time? I need you to leave. Now. Right in this moment, Love. Please, leave. I want you far. Where am I? Why am I riding this thunderstorm again? Chaos. Tears? Run! Do you miss me? I want you. I want you close. ... I need you far though. I am vulnerable. How did I end up here? Why did I let you in? What is the lesson I need to learn from you? Why did I have to fall in love with you? Did I ...

Who are you? What am I? Where are we? What would the final destination be? Why did we meet? Do we fit? Is it that you fit to me and that’s all there is? What is love? What is the warm feeling I get when I lay my head on your shoulder? Where does this calmness from feeling your skin go to? How do all these things propagate through me? Follow the details, that’s where you will find my unshielded self. What are you? Who am I? Why do you feel like home? Why can I cope with you? Why do I want to drow...