the kirkyard

I used to have no clue. Now I think I have plenty at 72. The past always asks me "Who knew?" I'm still answering, "No clue." ...

Some mornings to get to good you have to first decide whether to have a cup of coffee or a second sleep. Life may be best if it was lived as if my thoughts, words, and deeds were not necessary. Mortality may gain its im by oms. We shouldn't be nervous or worried about A.I. We've been practicing A.S. (Artificial Socialization) for years. And look how well that has turned out. We are all just giddy, well-adjusted social butterflies. Products that guarantee "You will feel a difference...

Texting is a way to tell others that the distance between a handshake, a fist-bump, a touch, or a hug, is infinite. The machines are breathing. I had an experience yesterday. Am I? I am now. Are you? At 71 years of age I know that I don't know anything, and I don't want to know anything. The same goes for nothing. I've been told that it's sunny on the bright side. Ruminating is so bovine. Cud it is. I'm milking it for all it's worth. You are here before you are there. ...

Easter. Sunday morning. Neither have any meaning for me. I sit. I drink a second cup of coffee. And now I write. If anyone has read any of my other posts you can tell the undercurrents of anger, anxiety, and angst. Being bitter is not a good look for most people. Although in the America of today bitter is becoming a by-word. Now I need to do some catching up. Starting from... August 22, 2020... I live to have no opinion about everyone else's opinion. September 15, 2020... Ordered a phone...

There is hope. Trump. Toast. Pass the butter. But I'm also afraid the damage has been done. Could it get worse? Yes. The bar has been lowered. 9 times out of 10 scrutiny screws. Has there ever been a generation that spends most of their waking hours indoors but worries what the weather is going to be like 10 days from today? For those of you on a deprivation diet, whether it be keto, paleo, vegan, or vegetarian, (and believe me, I have been a ketour), I raise my bar to you. https://www.litt...

and endings need an end. Good morning. I hope the morning and mornings for you don't feel like most mornings do for me. Not good. And not a morning in the metaphysical or poetical sense. For me mornings are when my physical eyes are opened and my body breathes and my mind screams in the silence of a barely noticeable will. Honestly. But let's get to some practical matters. Yes. It's been awhile since I posted anything. It is a kirkyard after all. Get it? Kirkyard. Look it up. You can sm...

Daylight/Nightlight... Yes. Watching and feeling it get darker an hour earlier each evening makes me feel like "Good Day Sunshine" by The Beatles is a tease. https://t.co/XiQsVLnchU— the kirkyard (@kirkyard) November 5, 2019 There are great articles and essays on Elle and Vogue. Suicides can never be poetic justice. Why do churches now hold "celebrations of life" for those who commit suicide? I have never seen them hold a celebration of life for those who have survived suicide attempts. W...

Neapolitan ice cream. Over half of a half gallon. Gone. The other half is shame and guilt. I have hit a wall. A lull. A depressed state. I need lifting. I need pushing. I need the pull forward. Life should be a lilt. Not something endured, embedded in silt. Yes. That was a little personal. That's okay. I need to spell it out. Honestly it's only honesty that gets you through. That's nothing new. Another sleepless night. Dog barking. But you already know this story. So I'll move on. ...

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How To Win At Solitaire: don't play it. How To Win At Being Solitary: resign yourself. How To Win At Being: consider it an alternative reality. How To Win: expect the worst. My question is: Why did humans have to be commanded in the first place if they had received the knowledge of good and evil from the fruit of the tree in the "Garden"? Are we like dogs and horses and have to be trained to obey commands? To me we are all just a part of that God's put-on dog and pony show. (Caveat. I am ...

Honesty. Honestly. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I feel like I'm losing. I feel. I'm curious. What is the first priority of living? Or, what is the first priority of your life? Extreme Christianists would of course answer Jesus to the second question. And if they were being honest, to the first question they would answer...nothing. Why? Because they can't be honest. Their first priority is to be dishonest, because according to their holy scripture, from the beginning, they only answer q...

I'm going to be leaving the house soon. Sun is shining and bright. I need bright. Dark night. Dog barked from two. No relief in sight. I love my mind at eleven a.m. Between heaven and hell. Oh well. A morning chardonnay is swell. Did I misunderstand the meaning of life? Could you repeat that? I wasn't making a sleight. See? I brought back the asterisk. Between the lines and lonely no more. Keep score. More later. There's always more later. ...

The morning. The coffee. The thoughts. My Acer laptop has the worst build quality of any laptop I've owned. The case is barely put together. Especially in the front where the ball of my hand rests. Click clack. Click clack, because the lip of the case doesn't even come together even. Also, the volume level is the lowest I've ever seen. And no fix for it. Should've stuck with Dell. It was the best I have had. Yes I know. They get bad raps too. The best thing that Donald Trump has done is to r...

I want to scream. I need to yell. Next door neighbor's dog has been barking for 6 days straight. This is my 6th year of listening to it. I live in a county that has no noise ordinances, no animal ordinances,hell, practically no ordinances at all. I've probably written about this before but it bears repeating. I truly believe people have been given permission to be complete and utter assholes by the example we have in The White House. And those of us who want to mind our own business and live in ...

Missed a lot of days I know. But it is day 63 of #100days. Just not in a row. So here we go... Was told by a Christian that they will see me going to hell and they don't want to see that. I'm torn. Become a "believer"in "the ONLY true and living god" so that I will be spared from that loving god's place of prepared eternal fire and brimstone for those who don't give him a like? Or get saved for that Christian's emotional sake? I have tried to be saved probably close to 5 or 6 times. They tell ...